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Last of the Light | Fraser River, Hope, BC

This time of year we find ourselves chasing the light around town, as the sun is constantly dipping behind the next in the neverending ring of mountains encircling Hope. This little spot on the banks of the mighty Fraser River permitted us about five minutes of sun before it disappeared for the day. This was a couple of weeks ago, and most of the vibrant autumnal colour has gone now, claimed by the onset of another damp Pacific Northwestern winter.  It was worth the scramble along the rocky bank to capture these few frames! All captured on Canon AE1 with Kodak Ektar 100 film, and developed & scanned back at Canadian Film Lab

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A waterside stroll in Steveston | Kodak Portra 800 & Ektar

I have two sets of things saved up for my Blog. One is a list of topics that I’d like to write about: musings and ideas that I think have the potential to be interesting or helpful to other people. The other is hundreds upon hundreds of photos, many of which I love, having felt deeply inspired to capture them, and then – seeing them on-screen after I developed and scanned the film – happily satisfied with how they fulfilled my vision. So why the backlog?

I would say I haven’t found a way that makes sense to me, to share my ideas, and to share my photographs. I have considered various options, and so far I’ve tended to separate them out into photographic blog posts, and personal ideas/musings blog posts. The problem I was finding was that publishing photographic blog posts felt much ‘safer’, so I just stopped writing the other kind. Then, partly because this made me feel bad about myself (too scared to write personal thoughts in a blog post = reason for self-criticism = avoidance) and partly for other reasons, I stopped publishing photographic blog posts too!

I was motivated to try to resurrect my blog, because of a personal journey that I’m on, part of which includes an aim to try to share more of myself, if I find something worth sharing. And I kind of realised that sharing anything – as long as it is something positive and kind-hearted – must be more worthwhile, and potentially helpful to others, than sharing nothing (which is what I’ve pretty much been doing for most of 2018).

So, with a vague aim to ‘write a blog post’, I was still left with the dilemma of how to reconcile the photographic content with the don’t-even-know-what-to-call-it personal musings content. I considered – Do I pull them together, even if they weren’t conceived that way? (That’s actually what I’m doing right now!)

My theme here is the barriers we can put in our way to acting. In my case I had a desire to share something positive: pretty pictures, and words that I thought might be helpful. But time and time again I stopped myself. Or as this note for a blog post idea I found on my phone today puts it, ‘Thinking about how I can talk myself or indeed think myself out of anything. A blog post that starts off as a great idea I never end up publishing [because I overthink it into meaninglessness]. Self-doubt contributes, then anxiety about others’ (anyone’s?!) opinion, or looking stupid, then finally a feeling that it’s entirely pointless anyway.’ Wanting things to be perfect before we put ourselves out there; wanting to avoid any possibility of failure; anxiety; depression; low self-worth; feeling we have nothing meaningful to contribute; existential crisis…any one or more of these and a hundred other painful, debilitating things can get in the way of us expressing ourselves, and it’s such a shame.

The photographs that appear below turn out to have some vague connection to my writing after all, but it wasn’t planned that way (which could be liberating for my future blog content!) I shot them in a very relaxed way, without overthinking, and without worrying too much about how they’d turn out and whether they were ‘worth’ taking. I shot them simply for enjoyment, as I strolled along the waterside in the beautiful fishing village of Steveston near Vancouver. I felt peaceful and free, and quietly inspired by the soft light and the subtle autumn colours. So I took the photos with the minimum of self-doubt or censorship, and I share them here – along with all my thoughts above – in the same open-hearted vein. Well, perhaps the sharing part comes with quite a bit more self-doubt, but I’m doing it anyway!

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The first few shots are on Kodak Portra 800, with the remainder on Kodak Ektar. All shot on my Canon AE1 and developed & scanned back at my lab, Canadian Film Lab

Christian Ward - November 5, 2018 - 6:46 am

So beautiful, I love the colours and scenes that you’ve captured. And I really hope to see lots more of your beautiful photos and carefully crafted words up on your blog soon!

Analog John - November 7, 2018 - 12:33 am

Beautiful photos Erica! I love that line about “overthinking into meaninglessness” it’s definitely something I struggle with often when it comes to sharing photos and captions!

Kath - November 10, 2018 - 8:18 pm

Another lovely blog and beautiful photos! Autumn is my favourite season, an the light is magical – you have captured the essence perfectly! xxxx

Unexpected love for a cloudy day | Bridgnorth on Portra 800

I have such a backlog of film to shortlist, edit, blog, and maybe even print, and at times I find it quite upsetting! So many images to be properly discovered and appreciated (by me I mean!), but most of the time I only just manage to find time to develop and scan my film, and then the results have to wait patiently on my hard drive, hoping they won’t be forgotten. I love the process of taking photographs, and then the fact that I don’t get to see them straight away. Then it’s such an exciting feeling, waiting for each image to come up on the scanner, able to see for the first time how well I’ve captured whatever beauty it was that inspired me to press the shutter button. And then I want to do more, create more, get and give more from my images. Putting together a blog post can be a rewarding next step in that creative process, but too often I find myself holding back in some way and for some reason. Sometimes this delay can occur for the simple reason that my eyes and brain are just too tired from working on my clients’ photographs in the lab, to want to strain them further by working on my own photographs. Sometimes I might feel I have something to say to accompany the images, which I overthink until it feels like there’s nothing meaningful or worthwhile left. This time around I’ve taken my delay tactics a step further…I actually put together this little collection over a month ago, pasted them into the blog and then ran away before the words would come!

I took these photographs during the Christmas holidays last year, when we had a wonderful trip to see family and friends back in the UK on our first visit since we moved to Canada. This pretty town is Bridgnorth in Shropshire, very close to where my sister lives, and I enjoyed a ramble around its charming narrow streets with my family, armed with my Canon AE1 and my ‘go to’ winter film, Kodak Portra 800 (as always I then developed and scanned the film back at my lab, Canadian Film Lab). This was a lovely day, with great company, and lots of interesting and engaging sights. What I love most about these images is that I feel the film has transcended what was actually quite flat light. I’m usually inspired by contrast in light; by shadows and sunlight, whether that be in the form of vibrant direct light, rich, colourful shade, or soft, subtle backlight. Grey days – unless they’re moodily dramatic – don’t usually float my photographic boat, but I was quite keen to capture lots of uniquely British images on this trip, particularly of the types of architecture that I miss, and so I took photographs even when the light wouldn’t usually compel me to do so. And I love how they turned out! So the moral of this particular photographic adventure for me was to be prepared to take a few risks, taking shots where the outcome is a little uncertain, and trusting that with sound shooting, film can produce subtle, beautiful results in unexpected circumstances.

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An Autumn Adventure in Yale | Part 2

Continuing our colourful Autumn adventure in Yale, we drove back along the country road heading for home, and noticed a little side road branching off towards the river. Heading down to explore, we were greeted by the sight of a secluded rocky beach on a bend in the river, where craggy ochre cliffs – near gold in the evening sun – rose up from the fast-flowing milky green waters of the Fraser. Brilliant yellow cottonwoods ringed the beach, reaching up delicately into a vivid blue sky, and further in the distance the gently domed mountains were covered in snowy pines. We spent time here soaking it all in and taking photographs, before I wandered to a far corner of the beach where I could make out the tantalising glimpse of a stream running down to the river. This little spot was my favourite of all…a Cottonwood tree lay across the head of the stream, sadly fallen but still with a full covering of golden-yellow leaves. The stream meandered down over river rock waterfalls, between sandy mini-cliffs, carrying with it a colourful surge of autumn leaves. A very special little place to finish our Autumn adventure in Yale!

All photographs on Contax 645/Kodak Portra 800/Canadian Film Lab

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An Autumn Adventure in Yale | Part 1

These photographs are from an amazing little spot about twenty minutes away from our home in Hope; a short, scenic drive north through the Fraser Canyon to the tiny one-time gold rush boomtown Yale. Christian found out about this location chatting to our hairdresser…she told him about a little backroad that forks off the main highway, going over the train track and ending up at a spectacular high overlook above the milky green whirling waters of the mighty Fraser River. This occasion was our second visit, and we seem to come here on days of extreme weather! On our previous visit in August (photos as yet un-blogged) the sun was beating down onto the almost shadeless spot, baking us in 35 degree heat. But on this November day temperatures were hovering around freezing, and the sun at first peeped out only occasionally from the soft clouds, disappearing altogether at times behind the mountains on its low wintery journey across the sky. As mid-afternoon arrived we felt we’d lost the sun for the last time, but round the bend in the river to the south we could see a little beach bathed in sunlight. Those photographs will follow in Part 2. All images captured on Contax 645 with Kodak Portra 800 and developed/scanned back at my lab, Canadian Film Lab.

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